Procrastination

So it has been two weeks since my negative beta test.  I've been meaning to email my nurse and find out about starting our FET cycle soon.  I haven't done it yet.  I keep writing it on my to-do list and just haven't.  I know I am procrastinating and I am trying to figure out why.   I know I want to ask about doing an endometrial biopsy which one of the women in my support group recommends.  After she had one done she got pregnant.  Apparently they scrape a bit off the inside of your uterus but it releases hormones that could help prepare for pregnancy.  Since I have never, ever been pregnant, I am about willing to try anything.  Just don't know if my doctor will agree.  Also, I am worried about a uterine fibroid that I have.  I know it got bigger between the summer when I did my mock cycle and this winter when I did my egg donor cycle.  Doctor again wasn't concerned but I tend to worry about things... I wonder if the medications will make it even bigger than before.  I have always thought that my fertility clinic is looking out for me, but lately I get this nagging feeling that maybe they aren't as much as I'd like them to be.  At what point should I return to my ob-gyn and ask what she thinks?  Also, I hate being the patient that acts like they know more than the doctor... "I read on the internet that...."

On another note, I still need to get this molar tooth replacement done and I am worried about getting it done during a pregnancy because of the medications.  I know it is safe, but the amount of drugs that I want during any procedure to numb the pain, I would assume would not be safe for my baby.

Part of me is procrastinating because I like knowing that I have the possibility of still having 2 healthy babies from our 2 frosties.  Once we do the frozen embryo transfer I'm afraid I will lose one or both of them.   I like knowing I have a family out there right now, even if they are on ice.