Spring Break!

It is amazing how just having a little sunshine, a few warmer days (until the past few) and some time to myself can really make a difference in my spirit!  I just felt like a huge weight lifted off of me once the flowers started blooming and the cloudy days disappeared.  Combined with finishing my third quarter grading and now starting our last quarter of the year and yes, finally a week off to myself... wow!  I am golden!

We decided not to travel anywhere this year and I am grateful for some much needed time to myself.  So is my house which definitely needed some TLC.  I don't know what happens but I utterly neglect certain aspects of house-cleaning between my breaks off from school.  Even during all of those snow days, I usually ended up doing grading rather than taking care of cleaning.  Anyway, I can tell just decluttering and doing a little cleaning (and even a little painting this weekend) makes such a difference in my mood.  I am so grateful for the breaks that teachers get from time to time.

The thing though with spring break is that it makes me so long for summer!  Bring it on!!!

We had our appointment with my ob-gyn last week and we decided all together that we should pursue removing my largest uterine fibroid which is embedded into the muscle of the uterine wall.  She referred me to two specialists and I have an appt with one on April 28 and am hoping to get in with the other one soon.  The pursued treatment will be having a myomectomy which is laparascopic and hopefully will result in a shorter recovery.   Of course this depends on what the specialists think too.  Because of where it is, she said that I could still have a healthy pregnancy without removing it, but her concern is that if they needed to do a C-section, it could be very risky because of its location.  That was all I needed to hear.  I hope to have a healthy pregnancy someday still and even better, save my uterus to possibly have another later down the road.  One can keep dreaming!

It was the first time that my DH met my ob-gyn.  He has always been a part of the team at my fertility clinic and ever present at most of those appointments, but this was new territory bringing him down these very female halls.  It felt really good having the conversation with the three of us.  I think he liked my doctor a great deal and it felt solid making the decision together as a team.

Has anyone else had this procedure?  What was your experience?

Embryo Transfer

Today we went in for our embryo transfer.  Our hopes are high that this time it will work but I must say that I was much less emotional this time.  The procedure was uncomfortable and my doctor got me ready before the embryologist was ready so we were all just hanging out (especially my ladybits) with a catheter in me, and an ultrasound wand pushing on my full-bladdered abdomen while the doctor opened the door to his right and yelled into the lab that we were ready.  I just gripped DH's hand and stared at the ceiling.  Hello.

We put in one 5 day blast, the other six we're waiting on news of their development and then freeze.  Should know in a few days if we have any cryopreserved.  We started with 12 eggs and they inseminated 9.  7 fertilized and that is what has been growing over the weekend.  The superstar blast that we put in today looked the best.  Dr. didn't give me a grade but said it looked very good.

DH had a new job to get to after he took me home.  So I'm on bed-rest all day while he is at work.  I can't believe his first day ended up being today.  Otherwise he would have taken off and waited on me.  So I packed a lunch just like I was at work and kept it next to the bed.  I've been snacking all day.  Hopefully he gets home soon as I'm getting really hungry and am trying to avoid going downstairs to the kitchen. 

The 2ww is on.  Beta is Dec. 30.  At least the holidays and traveling will keep me busy.

It is Happening...

I am beginning this blog a few months behind the actual start of my donor egg journey, but nevertheless, I can always go back and fill you in on how I got to this point.  The real excitement has begun as my donor is getting close to her egg retrieval.  My nurse says it will be Wednesday and if all goes well a five day transfer for us will be next Monday, the 16th.  I am overjoyed that she has about 25 follicles since we are in a shared donor program with another recipient.  I am nervous because nothing has ever worked before, so why now?  We know we also have male factor infertility issues so when it all comes down to it, a new shiny egg from a donor may not be enough.  We may learn that even with ICSI my DH's sperm could be even more of an issue than we thought.  However, despite these concerns, I am hopeful.  It is the season of giving and I am so very grateful that this anonymous young woman is sharing this part of herself with complete strangers to help us conceive a child. Bless you my dear!